Today I realized what’s actually the worst part about us no longer being together.
It’s not that I can no longer see you whenever I want. It’s not that I can no longer call you whenever I feel like it. It’s not that I want to be near you, but can’t. It’s not even imagining or knowing you’re going to be with someone else who isn’t me, or kissing and touching them the same we used to.
No. It’s none of those things.
The worst part about it is knowing that I can’t expect you to call me to make me feel better when you’re the one who made me hurt and know that I’m still hurting, and that I don’t have anyone to call who knows exactly what to say to make me feel better like you did.
I wish there was medicine for broken hearts.
